Intentional Healing During Mercury RX
When it comes to Mercury, the trickster planet of mental Olympics, there are only two ways you can face retrograde season: in fear or with your chest poked out. You are going to be tested either way but how you approach it makes a difference. Those who opt to say, “What is this trying to teach me?” vs “Why is this happening to me?” will integrate the lesson with way more ease. Chances are you’ll end up saying both lol.
My Mercury Retrograde Observations: A Lesson in Shadow Work
I began working on some personal healing and manifesting that has required me to change how I was previously operating.
This first week forced me to rest. Who knew it was so hard to do nothing! My body wouldn't let me push myself. It was only through being forced to observe my own patterns that I began to recognize how much of my energy was going out, my unconscious savior program, and how much time I was spending in my masculine energy. The way that I was achieving my goals currently was further damaging my nervous system. Over time this would have no doubt led me to another burnout period. You can't recognize you're still in survival mode until you take a moment and pause. This is the purpose of Mercury Retrograde. This includes its shadow phase, which begins two weeks before the actual event, and closes out the cycle two weeks following.
There were moments this week where I cried because I didn't have the mental strength or energy to handle some of the problems coming across my screen. People write me all day- family, friends and clients. I am quick to pop in like Super Woman. Guess what I discovered next? The same God that helps me, can help others too. What happened when I couldn't respond - “He” showed up for them and they figured it out. I did not need to be overextending myself. God did not tell me to do that was the message I kept getting lol. God doesn't have limited availability. Being the oldest child had created some mental patterns that could only be cleared out through complete rewiring. This Scorpio season has been serious for me.
Now I'm resetting my nervous system in isolation, learning about healthy boundaries and creating a safe space for myself so that I can thrive in my purpose instead of feeling imprisoned by the role I've been given. During a peak moment of freaking out about what I wasn't getting done, my phone went off and I picked it up per usual. Much to my surprise it wasn't someone that needed me but a subliminal video that said "Trust The Process". I said "You got it God!" and I surrendered.
Today I sat down and reworked my schedule based on me. Imagine that being central to my own life! Going forth I won't be abusing myself with hard work but moving with my personal flow, allowing for rest and progress in alignment with my purpose. I had been beating myself up for missing delivery deadlines prior to this week. Today I looked at my inbox and realized that I talk to no less than 6 people, unscheduled, every day for what comes to around thirty minutes each. That's three unpaid hours of psychic energy usage, totaling around twenty hours a week, being expended because I didn't know how to put up boundaries as a spiritual worker -_-
There's no way I can operate like I was before now that I've become aware of what's draining me. I could easily complete my video readings log with twenty hours a week of uninterrupted focus time and never miss a deadline! I was refusing to put my phone on DND because I have kids and to be honest, because I constantly felt like someone always needs me for something like I'm an on-call doctor. Day one of Retrograde season baby, this can be no longer! If we don't have a scheduled session and you don't want to schedule a session, baby, leave your thoughts or questions in the comments. I will get to who/what I can when I have time.
I used to pride myself on being able to handle everyone else's problems like Olivia Pope. Going forward I will pride myself on teaching other people how they can do it themselves. I am your training wheels not a crutch. I still feel bad writing this but it's way worse when I have to give a refund.
(Can y'all tell I've been doing dark feminine integration affirmations too?! )
The Trust The Flow Subliminal:
https://youtu.be/Li3LtiJTeiw?si=FW-FTlKO7QngXWhv
Dark Feminine Overnight Integration:
https://youtu.be/UkxlxcRuCak?si=dXqfYC4lO9kVieP7
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